Burn It Down And Walk Away

I find my self in a place where I am sick of this slavery but still scared to do what is necessary to get out of these chains that hold me there. 

It's times like now that I wish I still had you behind my back offering words of courage.  Urging me to not find comfort in shame, but to truly stand up straight.

I set this loneliness aside...

What's the point of wishing you were here?

Yet the feeling is quite unavoidable.

I wish you were here as I go to these new horizons of my life. You would have been a wonderful peace of mind.

I realize none of this matters...

But I simply wanted to acknowledge how I feel.

I simply needed to accept it as real before I burn this whole thing down and walk away forever.

The Revisionist by The Lawrence Arms

the sway and swell
flee with her motion
red-gold across my arms
the vicious strokes i painted
a river fills your heart
i'm sorry if i let you down
i know just how you feel tonight
this is never what you wanted
i was searching for myself
in other people's eyes

the mirror's telling half truths
the stolen words finally feel like mine
swollen and sweating (sweating)
off time (off time)
i can see it in your eyes
an ocean floods my heart
i'm sorry that i let you down
you know just how i feel tonight
this is everything i wanted
you've been searching for yourself
in other people's eyes

the revisionist
never gets it perfect
never gets it perfect
the revisionist
never gets you perfect
never gets you perfect

time is never right
the words are never right

The World Within

For so long I have looked outward noticing all the problems in this world and culture, but it not until recently that I have truly looked inward and the world within.

As I  pay attention to my feelings and my thoughts I realize that there is so many things that I simply choose not to think about. That as soon as my mind goes down certain alleys and paths I am filled with fear and I immediate reaction is to stop thinking about the subject and move on to something else.

However I have recently been trying to avoid this and to pay extra attention in those places that I avoid. So far this has been very useful.  I am finding out more about myself every day and coming to terms with some issues rather then avoiding them.

Give it a try.  As you think and you mind avoids certain subjects, don't move on but pay extra attention to those things and with a spirit of self honesty truly question why that subject makes you uncomfortable, or scared.  It is very likely that these are the aspects of our life that you need to recognize, come to terms with, and then change, but if we simply avoid it... is any of this possible?