I don't usually talk about my personal life, but I have had an on going frustration that I would like to share with those of you who decide to take interest in these rambling of mine.
My parents have always claimed "they just want me to be happy" however what I find interesting about this statement is that I have never been asked how I feel in the first place. I have never been asked what my goals and desires are. No how I feel and what I want in life has always been assumed or rather commanded.
Religion has always had priority over my desires, wants, and needs.
I can't think of anything that would make me more proud then if I had a kid who felt like he/she could disagree with me openly and rationally with about being afraid of ridicule and hostility.
But my parents hold the opposite value of a good child that they are proud of.
Thus my parents don't love me as an individual, they love me as a cookie cutter piece. They love me as long as I am vague person with no sense of self.
I am sure most of us have had similar experiences and I am by no means claiming that I have it so bad, but it is a frustration in my life none the less.
I suppose in the end it doesn't really matter, people that have never taken the time to know me, or tried to question what they believe are in no position to give me any effective criticism, but rather intimidation.
Well if you have read down to here, thank you. I will put up some more formal blogs soon I promise.
1 comments:
I usually don't like to post comments. I know you will probably veto what I have to say, But I am going to say it anyway. Your parents love you for you. I am 100% sure of this. Some people just don't ask other people how they are doing and so forth. That is just how some people work. You live your life in a different life style than they do. Yet, again we all have a different point of view of life and we all will! I am sure at one point they have been disappointed by this but it doesn't make them love you any less. You are who you are and that's the best you can give them. My parents still love brianna to the fullest and really honestly I didn't see why but I do now. It's called unconditional love! anyway sorry if this is bother some. just thought I would say something. Have Fun.
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