Egocide

I have come to the realization that the vast majority of my personal blogs are not really happy ones... I suppose the times I feel like expressing myself most is when I feel troubled.  But quite honestly I am not a sad person, and I am not overall discontent with my life.

So today we can talk about other things rather then my troubles.

I have been fairly anti-social lately, but it has had some good effects, and overall I have enjoyed it.  I have been reading and writing my in journals like crazy, and it has resulted in a lot of realizations, and uncovering of simple truths. Some about myself, and some about the world around me (you will see a lot of these ones on my other blog).

The truth is a truly liberating thing. However the damage from our past sometimes makes it difficult to live and actually apply to our lives. I believe for the first time in my life I am starting to truly apply the truth to my life rather then hide and be ashamed of it.  I find that it is very rewarding, and it makes you feel more true to yourself.

We take for granted how important it is to be true to yourself... if you can't trust yourself... what do you have left?

Once that is put into perspective, and you realize how many people have no sense of self respect, and self trust it really puts the world as it is in an entirely different perspective.

People look to others for completion and some kind of security but once again, what do we have left when you can't trust our selves? How can we be capable of sincerity, love, and respect when we have no sense of self? What to we have to offer other people when we have nothing to offer ourselves?

We have been taught our whole lives to abandon our sense of self for "the greater good" or "because it's prideful" and so on.  Gods, governments, and cultures don't have anything to gain from self respecting people who are content with their individuality. They would rather you be a dependant broken human being, too scared to leave the herd.

What these gods, governments, and cultures have done is a kind of egocide. They have destroyed our sense of self.  And we need to get it back.

This is what has been on my mind lately, and I just felt like sharing it with those of you who care to read this blog. Hopefully you can find some kind of value from my own reflections on life.